Even so, you kept helping Nic get back in rehab. How were you able to do that?
David: First of all, I had to learn that there are ways that I would help and ways I wouldn't. Giving money to a using addict is like giving a gun to someone who is suicidal. I wouldn't bring him home and just let him rest and recover and then go back and use. How many times did you go to rehab?
Nic: I went to five different treatment centers. I know for a fact, 99.9 percent of the reason I am alive today is because my mom and my dad both consistently had this message for me: We're not going to help you unless it's to get you into a treatment center. That was the bottom line. They never went back on that. They always were there to offer me that opportunity to go into treatment and get better. How long have you been sober?
It's been a little over two years. Congratulations. What are you doing now?
I live kind of a simple life. I'm living in Georgia. My girlfriend goes to the Savannah College of Art and Design. I live with her, and we have a dog that we found on the side of the road and two cats. I work as an art model at the school, which is weird, but not really any more difficult than writing a memoir and letting everyone see what's really going on with you. I can't put too much on my plate, really. I have to be careful. I do have this disease, and it sucks. I go over to friends' houses and they're drinking and just having a good time. I can hang out with them, but I can't just have that same uncaring recklessness that I see my peers having. It's sad. But I'm not willing to jeopardize this life that I've created for myself.
You both suffered so much. How would you advise other families?
David: There are many things I wish I could redo as a parent. Talk to your children about drugs. Have an open conversation with them. You need to prepare them for what will probably happen. When I was a kid, I walked into my friend's house one day, and his older brother handed me a joint. I had to decide what to do. No one had ever talked to me about it, but I wasn't going to be uncool. I smoked. Nic: I always felt just like really, really sensitive and overwhelmed by the world. I was scared all the time. I tried to fix that feeling by doing all these different things. It wasn't just drugs. It was excessively exercising or being in relationships. Even when I was prostituting on the street, it was this feeling of, I need someone to show me that I'm valuable. I need to be loved.
If I could just tell young people, if you feel insecure and scared, that's ok. It's a burden, but nothing that you ever look for outside of yourself is ever, ever, ever going to fill that hole.
David: It's a cliché at this point that a lot of people who use drugs are self-medicating for depression and bipolar disorder, attention deficit disorder, and this and that. But 70 to 80 percent of people who wind up in rehab also have a mental illness.
Nic: I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and depression. I am on medication for that. It helps. It's like there are all these little pieces of the puzzle, and this might just be one little piece that's helping me out. I'm going to keep doing it, for sure.